Blog if I want too!!! Blog if I want too!!!

 Blog if I want too!!! Blog if I want too!!!

 Soooo I haven't blogged in a minute BUT all that is about to change .See I have wanted to blog many times but always end up over thinkin an worrin about what people might think, or say... well screw that!From now forward I will blog want I want,when I want, as much as I want and I won't be gettin my panties in a bunch about what others may think, feel, say  or judge me on and about...  It's my blog an I'll blog if I want to , blog if I want too , blog if I want too you would blog too *if your life was as fuckin awesome as mine!!*  if it it happened to you!! he he :O)Not to mention I am entirely to fucked in the head totally fuckin fabulous to keep all this amusing shit to myself!! SO!!! All that said I have up days an down days here on I will be writing regardless of the day I am having. I know alot of people have said how can you so freely throw out on the internet such personal  and private stuff welp I can because I have learned in all my 40ish ummm 25 yrs*yea right!!  that whether or not people say it or admit to it, we are all generally fucked up.Some people just choose to pretend an masquerade an image of perfection.. fact is NONE of us are perfect an just because you chose to tell people or not doesn't change the fact that you are what you are and chances are somebody or everybody else has been through it, done it, or had it happen in their lives at some point or will eventually anyway.. hmm did that make any sense at all??? HA!!   Sometimes life is a bed of roses and you get to lay down without the worry of thorns.. and sometimes life is a big fuckin tumbleweed that throws you around, shakes the shit out of you and eventually throws you face first right into the grill of an oncoming big ass vehicle... And in days coming I will cover whatever kind of day that is... The key to whatever is happening or whatever is going on in your life is to somehow find the good , the positive and the hopefulness in it.. The sayin you reap what you sow is more true than most people ever get, same is true about karma and man O man when karma comes back around and you are allowed to watch it unleash and  rage on, it is so fuckin awesome there are no words for it!!!I have had the pleasure of watching karma in action ALOT lately.. and it is so fuckin satisfying!!! HA HA!BUT BUT BUT!!!! DON'T get me wrong, - I have ALSO been on the receiving end of karma which is exactly why I live the way I do now.. fuck that! Karma truly is a bitch an I would MUCH rather have that bitch as my friend an on my side than face her in a much deserved duel! because if karma comes for you, you definitely deserve it or she wouldn't be there in the first place! just sayin...HA!  Bottom line is I send out what I pray I get in return.. I'm not sayin I don't screw up, because I do usually more than most .. I'm just sayin I make a conscious choice to try to live better, nicer, kinder....
There is a quote by Mother Teresa that not only do I love but try hard to live by, the quote is this...

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier.
Be the living expression of God's kindness:
Kindness in your face, Kindness in your eyes, Kindness in your smile."
*Mother Teresa*

Some days I master that  and some days I fail miserably..But I try... and try again...I KNOW I am a good person, I'd give the shirt off my back to ANYONE who needed it and  I believe wholeheartedly in paying it forward and jumpin in an being the first one to reach out your hand if someone needs one to hold.. I love deeply and intensely and when hurt it psychically makes me sick..
At the end of the day.. follow my blog or don't I really don't care either way.. I do this in some ways just for me, an in some ways so that other people know that no matter how fucked up you THINK you are there are people out there who are equally fucked up or are so far beyond fucked up that it makes you look normal HA HA!! In my case well.. I am a sliding scale sometimes more sane than even I want to be and in others more screwed up than I think should be legal for anyone to be out in the free world!! And sometimes I'm right in the middle teetering on the edge of glorious craziness where the oblivion to the outside world is a joyous and colorful place where everything is great and wonderful an right with the world.. that THAT is my favorite place....  Until next time!! TA TA!! :O)

Happy Halloween.. Right??

So Halloween was my son's totally favorite holiday...
I lost him 3yrs ago so for me Halloween is more of an in your face reminder that my son isn't here... As is Mother's Day, Thanksgiving and of course Christmas.. I could go on about the days that seem a gazillion times harder for me now that he is gone but I'll spare you that..
Instead to say only it was his favorite holiday, an mine.. well not so much...
However I have a grand baby, an nieces an nephews that depend on their *Mimi* to be upbeat, happy, cheerful, and excited to join in the holiday festivities..
So I throw on a smile, throw out a giggle or two, an make and/or buy special little things that will create (hopefully) fond memories for them, and for me also don't get me wrong, I am not void of all happiness, quite the contrary.. I do have happy holiday's.. mine are just overcast now is all...
However Halloween is one that I would rather just kind of sleep through...
Blah...
Ok so anyway!!!
Last year I found these super cute scarecrow bags!!

Aren't they awesome??? I KNOW RIGHT!!!!

Today I spent filling them up with the kiddo's favorite candy and some cheesy little Halloween drinking straws & Halloween pencils...

I actually caught myself excited for the first time in 3yrs ... it was such a nice change from the previous 3yrs...

I know the kid's will love these cute lil bags, an I know that my sweet boy is lookin down from Heaven sayin' yes mama this is good, smile, and have fun.. an I also know he would have LOVED these little bags an been so excited about gettin them ready for the little ones...
Anyway tonight as your out with your ghouls and goblins, witches and spooks please remember to be safe, watch out for the crazies that are NOT watching out for you.. an above all have fun and cherish these memories, these times although abit hectic make up some of the best times of your life....
Happy Halloween ya'll!!!

Crayola Art :O)

So confession time first off...
This post was actually suppose to be posted 2 weeks ago but I forgot...
Hey I'm an Ol' lady cut me some slack...
Anyway!! lol

Ok, who doesn't love the idea of crayola art?? Come on!!! This is just to cool!!
Soooo I found myself seeing this type of thing all over the web so I decided to try it myself...
O' Holy Joy Batman!!
I'm in-love!!! This so so super fun to make!!
I already have another larger one in progress, but it will have brighter colors an less of the green...
Also this time I PROMISE to take pictures along the way, an do a step by step how to... :O)
In this one I used crayons of mostly greens (different shade of) and a few browns, oranges, and a couple of reds & blues..
The white poofy flowers, and the centers of the red flowers I made out of a creamy white yarn.
The red flowers are some left over gut's of an arrangement I made for the living room....
Loads of fun to do, stress relief and you get to act abit silly and nobody seems to care because they are so wrapped up in it with you!! he he he
Therapeutic.... Maybe?? lol
Not bad for a first attempt ... no???

You MIGHT Be A Hoarder If.....

You MIGHT Be A Hoarder If.....

Ok, so no I really don't think I am a hoarder...
uummm ok, wait...
Do hoarders think, that they are hoarders??
Ok I MIGHT be a hoarder... lol
So as it goes, I have been kind of craftin out of my dining room...
Why?? Because well we moved 3 yrs ago an put everything in storage.. noooooo I won't go into the whys of it, I will spare you...
Anyway, so I am just now gettin my craft room/guest room set up...
It has been a mess, I have no room for all the freakin junk  lovely crafty things I have, add to that by the fact that I have to also have a room for guest crammed with the fact that it is a 3 bedroom SMALL er umm quaint little place I have...
Needless to say I am havin to get abit creative with my space..
So it goes...
You might Be A Hoarder If...
1.) You have scrap paper by the pallet loads, datin back to the day's of Moses

2.) You can allot 2 blankets per family member AND their guest, an yet you still have over 50 blankets...

3.) You have a collection of paint brushes made out of tree branches, horse hair and raccoon fur..
(ok this is an exaggeration) lol

4.) You have enough wine and / or booze that you could open your own bar...

5.) You have things that you have carried with you through varies moves for the last 10yrs because you KNOW that one-day you will make something out of it..

6.)You open a box of items to find that 6 families of spiders have moved out of, and that they have left forwarding addresses...

7.) And finally you have fabric that even the cast of the Austin Powers Series would laugh at...
*sigh*

Ok yea there is more...
I could go on, but we would be here for ages..
So I'll stop here..

Keepin in mind that I am NOT finished with this craft/guest room, below is how the room is startin to take shape..
1.) My Homeless Scrap Paper

2.) We're Goin In!!

3.) We will probably need ALOT of this.... just sayin...

4.) Sortin-Sortin-And MORE Sortin!

 

5.) Startin To take some sort of shape.. no???

I'm kinda proud of it... :O)

 

The antique bed is one I picked up from Craigslist for a WHOPPIN $35.00 bucks, it was in pretty sad shape, but with the help of my AH (Awesome Hubby) we tore it all apart.
We had to cut off the old dowels and re-drill new dowel holes and scrape, sand, an saw through about 3000 TONS of old glue...
Then we matched the blue-ish/grey paint to an old dresser, hope chest, an book shelf that I also picked up from CL for are you ready for this..... $45.00 Bucks!! WOOOO HOOO!! :O)~
The bed is over 100yrs old, has wooden wheels and I am completely in-love with it!

So ok, I MIGHT be a crafty hoarder, but I have some GREAT stuff crammed into this little room, an I am lookin forward to makin bucket loads of messy crafty type things in here!!..
I am one happy redneck hoarder girl! HA!

The Rookie Chef: Ham and Egg Cups (low carb!)

OK!! So how freakin YUMMMMYYY do these look!
I will be trying them on saturday!
Why?? Because....
1.) They are totally LOW CARB (YES!!),
And...
B.) Because well Im fat!
Finally, because they look totally yummy! YAY!
ooo'oooo'ooo Yea and because I am freakin starvin!!!
An a fat lady's gotta eat!!
wanna eat, wanna eat!! he he he

The Rookie Chef: Ham and Egg Cups (low carb!): Last week I talked about my Breakfast Cupcakes (basically just an egg fritata all piled into a muffin tin). While those were delicious, I do get bored easily. I can't eat the same thing every single day or I'd go crazy! So I wanted to mix it up when it comes to easy to prepare, easy to eat, and easy to freeze breakfast options. I've seen a few versions of bacon and egg cups floating around the internet (example here) but I for one do not need those extra carbs in the morning.


So why not replace the bread 'cup' portion with ham? Yum, yes please. Easy and low-carb... now that's my kind of breakfast!

Ingredients:



•4 eggs

•8 slices of Hillshire Farms Ultra Thin Smoked Ham (any ham would be fine, but this is what I had on hand)

•Cheese, to your liking

•Salt & Pepper

•Any veggies you want to include (I just threw in a little chopped onion)




Directions:




•Spray your muffin pan with Pam or another nonstick spray and preheat the oven to 400 degrees.

•Place one slice of ham in a muffin cup. Press down so it creates a 'cup'. Now place a second piece of ham in the same cup, but going the opposite direction. You're basically criss-crossing your slices so that the egg can't escape :)

•Crack an egg into your ham cup. I like my scrambled, so I did that step first in a separate bowl. You could definitely keep the yolk intact if that is more your style!

•Add in veggies and top with cheese.

•Bake for 15 minutes and enjoy!


I've mentioned it before in my posts about Breakfast Cupcakes but I love Tabasco on my eggs. So that is exactly what I added to the Ham and Egg Cups to make a tasty breakfast. Remember, this recipe was only for four servings, but you can make as many as you want! These would freeze great and be good for any busy morning. Just take out of the freezer and cook in the microwave for approximately 1 minute.

She was sad, though....

She wasn't bitter. 
She was sad, though.... 
But it was a hopeful kind of sad. 
The kind of sad that just takes time.....
*Stephen Chbosky*

 

I'm Frustrated Already! - (WARNING ADULT CONTENT)

  HELP!!!!! 

Ready to bang my freakin head against a wall, the desk, a mountain..
Does anyone out there in blog-land have the know how to import my "My Notes"  from  that God awful, egg suckin, piece of shit Facebook to here?? I have already created an xml file, but everytime I try to import it to here I get an error message..
I surely don't want to have to copy and paste every single heart-wrenchin, borin, nobody reads it anyway,  blog posted over there on to here...
Can anyone help before, I have a total fuckin melt down here!
Puuuhhhlllllleeeeessseeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!! Pretty Please???