Blog if I want too!!! Blog if I want too!!!
Soooo I haven't blogged in a minute BUT all that is about to change .See I have wanted to blog many times but always end up over thinkin an worrin about what people might think, or say... well screw that!From now forward I will blog want I want,when I want, as much as I want and I won't be gettin my panties in a bunch about what others may think, feel, say or judge me on and about... It's my blog an I'll blog if I want to , blog if I want too , blog if I want too you would blog too *if your life was as fuckin awesome as mine!!* if it it happened to you!! he he :O)Not to mention I am entirely to fucked in the head totally fuckin fabulous to keep all this amusing shit to myself!! SO!!! All that said I have up days an down days here on I will be writing regardless of the day I am having. I know alot of people have said how can you so freely throw out on the internet such personal and private stuff welp I can because I have learned in all my 40ish ummm 25 yrs*yea right!! that whether or not people say it or admit to it, we are all generally fucked up.Some people just choose to pretend an masquerade an image of perfection.. fact is NONE of us are perfect an just because you chose to tell people or not doesn't change the fact that you are what you are and chances are somebody or everybody else has been through it, done it, or had it happen in their lives at some point or will eventually anyway.. hmm did that make any sense at all??? HA!! Sometimes life is a bed of roses and you get to lay down without the worry of thorns.. and sometimes life is a big fuckin tumbleweed that throws you around, shakes the shit out of you and eventually throws you face first right into the grill of an oncoming big ass vehicle... And in days coming I will cover whatever kind of day that is... The key to whatever is happening or whatever is going on in your life is to somehow find the good , the positive and the hopefulness in it.. The sayin you reap what you sow is more true than most people ever get, same is true about karma and man O man when karma comes back around and you are allowed to watch it unleash and rage on, it is so fuckin awesome there are no words for it!!!I have had the pleasure of watching karma in action ALOT lately.. and it is so fuckin satisfying!!! HA HA!BUT BUT BUT!!!! DON'T get me wrong, - I have ALSO been on the receiving end of karma which is exactly why I live the way I do now.. fuck that! Karma truly is a bitch an I would MUCH rather have that bitch as my friend an on my side than face her in a much deserved duel! because if karma comes for you, you definitely deserve it or she wouldn't be there in the first place! just sayin...HA! Bottom line is I send out what I pray I get in return.. I'm not sayin I don't screw up, because I do usually more than most .. I'm just sayin I make a conscious choice to try to live better, nicer, kinder....
There is a quote by Mother Teresa that not only do I love but try hard to live by, the quote is this...
"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier.
Be the living expression of God's kindness:
Kindness in your face, Kindness in your eyes, Kindness in your smile."
*Mother Teresa*
Some days I master that and some days I fail miserably..But I try... and try again...I KNOW I am a good person, I'd give the shirt off my back to ANYONE who needed it and I believe wholeheartedly in paying it forward and jumpin in an being the first one to reach out your hand if someone needs one to hold.. I love deeply and intensely and when hurt it psychically makes me sick..
At the end of the day.. follow my blog or don't I really don't care either way.. I do this in some ways just for me, an in some ways so that other people know that no matter how fucked up you THINK you are there are people out there who are equally fucked up or are so far beyond fucked up that it makes you look normal HA HA!! In my case well.. I am a sliding scale sometimes more sane than even I want to be and in others more screwed up than I think should be legal for anyone to be out in the free world!! And sometimes I'm right in the middle teetering on the edge of glorious craziness where the oblivion to the outside world is a joyous and colorful place where everything is great and wonderful an right with the world.. that THAT is my favorite place.... Until next time!! TA TA!! :O)
